I'm not really sure where to start with this post. It's really more my life story, but I want to share how the Lord has been moving my heart in such a way that I not contain it anymore.
Over the last month I have been asking the Lord how do people continue to have open and soft hearts towards him day after day, year after year when life seems to beat us up and even in our best efforts we drift from him. I had this revelation in the prayer room today...that I have been trying to get to God without receiving His love and his delight in me. I have been trying to clean up my heart and go the long way which is really destruction. I have stayed at a distance in shame and fear that he would not want me anymore, that he finally got annoyed with me and gave up on forming me into his image. Pain, despair and self-pity have a way of blinding us of what is in front of us. As I have been staying in the prayer room for hours day after day it was like the Lord said, "are you ready to let me in again?" My heart lept with a YES!!! I know that I am made for love and I have felt deprived. Reality, Jesus has love for me every minute of every day that I have access to if I will let him love me. So I will let Him love me for it sets me free.
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